just wondering

i told myself that i want to join spore idol but after thinking and considering for soo long, i just can't bring myself to join.

1) im scared. i have camera-phobia and judges-phobia
2) Im no better than the public
3) i cant think of a proper song to sing
4) my parents will ground me if they find out i joined.
5) i feel that im not the criteria they would want. all they want is a pretty face not the talent
6) Im still schooling. gonna graduate in march. so must concerntrate right?