sth's wrong wit me

i think sth's seriously wrong with me.. i just read my bro's blog and i was totally shocked.. he fell in love with a girl..her name is wan ling.. hehehe... but he's sad cause he said sth hurtful to her...aww what a basket he is..

i thought to myself 'sth is wrong with me. seriously.' why cant i get a bf when both my bros can? not comparing genders here but as siblings, why is it only me who dont have a bf? i think its because im shy. i guess i dont show my feelings to that person. i dont have the courage to tell him ' i like u'.. if i tell him that, he will be " yeah right, thanks but i'd rather have kylie minogue'.. thats the thing that i dread most.. thinking he will say that in front of me or behind my back to his friends. i'd rather keep my pride than making a fool out of myself.

i will be turning 20 this yr and i have been single for the past 20 yrs. no bfs, no admires. i feel so old.. when one feels old, they start to think things. for example, ' oh gosh, im 20 and im still a virgin!!' 'oh gosh, im 20, i think i better convert to a nun soon before i tourture myself.' ' gosh, im 20,at this age, where am i gonna get a guy? its either hes taken or hes gay.'

in this world, im soo dissapointed that lifes not perfect for me, oh how i wish some prince charming would charm his way to me soooooooonnnnnnn......