And the credit goes to...

It seems that what ever I do, the credit goes to someone else. It seems that when I help them, they tend to shine. And therefore the credit still goes to them and not to me. I don't know why it only happens to me but I sure don't like it.

I've been feeling really shitty these past few days. Ever since my project presentation. I feel incompetent, useless, a fool to believing that I can do it. But no. My efforts had gone down the drain and the praise had gone to someone else instead. I thought ignoring it would take the emotions away but its still there. Fresh and sore. Its like you have put a lot of hard work into proven what you are worth but in the end you've been hidden.

That's why I hate being a 'leader'. Its like an omen to me. I don't like being a leader. I'd rather follow instructions than give instructions. What's the bloody use of being the 'leader'? I'd rather change my role to being a 'talent'.

To whom it may concern: you are doing a good job, keep it up. I'm now trying not to be the leader now since they have a new found trust in you than in me.

I realised that im incompetent. And I realised that these past years, I have been putting in a lot of effort in everything I do but it just goes un-noticed. I like to say ' I don't know' to you all and I really dont know.

Feeling demoralised and sad and disappointed in me. I wonder how to be confident in finding a job and feel confident that I can excel in my work. right now.